Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Discouraged

I'm feeling discouraged today. As I've stated before, I've got this lump on the back of my head by the incision. They took a CT scan and said there was no leak. Regardless, the lump is still there and it's really hurting. I'm now having a headache that generates from that spot. It hurts to lay on it and the scar is starting to feel very sensitive right around the swollen place.

Up until the last several days, I've been feeling pretty good. Now, I feel like I've been set back 2 weeks. I'm just exhausted, don't have much of an appetite and I have a headache again. My neck has started to hurt. As I've said, I see the doctor on the 8th and was hoping that he'd release me to drive, go back to work, etc. He might still do that but if I don't feel better, it's just not going to happen.

I was reading stories online last night about people recovering from this surgery. Some people felt fine after 3-4 weeks and it took others 6 months or more to be able to function normally. It's been almost 4 weeks for me and I feel like I'm going backwards. I'm doing what I was told to do which is rest. I'm not doing anything that I shouldn't be doing. I'm taking naps when I'm tired. Yes, I've been out several times but I didn't overdo it. Am I expecting too much too fast?